Holding on to fear and hurt on the TF journey towards anybody stops you from union with your true self. It keeps you focused on this 3D realm and in separation consciousness. Only by letting go of your past hurts can your energy be focused entirely on your true self and the union of all parts of your true self including your masculine and feminine energies. Forgiveness and letting go is the key to this. You do not owe anybody anything and nobody owes you anything. You are carrying old negative energy that is stored within you, feeding on you and slowing your inner union process. Imagine a cashier that no matter how many numbers it pumps out it is always forced back to zero. At first the cashier may have resistance to this. But after a while it will not feel balanced and stable unless the number is displays is zero.  a nice round infinite zero. A beautiful circle of inner union and uninterrupted energy field around you, protecting you. 

see this negative energy and disrupting your sacred inner peace. Nothing is worth this price. Let it go and surrender to your true self. You are always safe with soul. Release everything to the natural universal laws and to karma and keep your inner energetic circle of peace pure and shining brightly.